Inflicting pain turns me on.
But it’s more than that. It’s watching the reaction pain brings. Hot, stinging, thudding. Watching pink skin turn a vibrant red, as welts begin to rise. Heat warming my hands as I run them over your pretty raw flesh turns me on. Dancing the delicate balance between pleasure and pain.
Watching you squirming delights me.
I remember the first time I saw someone perform with a single tail. It was at a play party in San Francisco and I had been a pro domme for less then a year. An old school leather dyke gracefully dancing with two 3 foot single tails making them sing. No bottom. She wasn’t using them to inflict pain, simply twirling, snapping, dancing. Beautiful. Loud. Scary. I was immediately enchanted.
In 1995 I ordered my first signal whip from David Morgan. I still have that whip, as well as a 4 foot whip I bought from him a couple of years later. I spent hours practising with my new whip, aiming at my freshly fluffed pillow and trying to leave the lightest, shallowest divit I could, repeatedly, in the same spot, before giving it a good snap and seeing how deep I could dig into the pillow. How loud I could make it crack. Once I snapped clear through a worn cotton pillow case and couldn’t stop giggling. I would chase paper bags around my bedroom, snap, snap, snap, it would move an inch, a few inches, before finally shredding it with my new toy.
I’m sure my roommates loved hearing that for hours on end.
Now my arsenal has increased to include many other impact toys, a beautiful collection of leather floggers, dragon tails, as well as less traditional, custom made impact toys, like the the wooden scepter I’m holding in the picture above. It was created with pain, and marks in mind by someone who is a lifelong sadomasochist.
Why would someone be into RECEIVING Pain?
I often work with couples where the aspiring top fears hurting their pain seaking partner. They don’t fully understand their partners need for pain and they aren’t sure how to inflict it safely. I always invite them to rethink their idea of pain. After all, it’s not pain that they are inflicting. Pain is subjective. What they are inflicting, and what their partner needs to feel is more intense sensation.
Some people just need a deeper massage, a tighter hug, a more aggressive touch in general.
Mentally, some people feel a release after experiencing pain, much like others gets from meditation. It slows a busy brain and forces the receiver to feel their physical body. Some enjoy the service aspect of offering their body as a receptacle for their Mistresses sadistic inclinations, or as a show of her ownership. Others enjoy feeling they are being punished for some real, or imagined misdoing.
Or a little bit of all of the above.
And marks. There is something ever so sexy about having marks the day, or days after play to remind you of the service, submission, and/or deviance you explored with your top. Sometimes the pain is a turbulent journey to wearing the marks.
But it’s about more than just the sensation, it’s about the fear of what’s coming. It’s about the endorphins flooding their body after hitting that sweet spot of sensation overload. The silencing of a busy brain.
why do I like INFLICTING pain?
As an ethical sensual sadist, I enjoy watching people react as I inflict sensation on them. I don’t like hurting people just to hurt them, but see submission as a gift and feel giddy with power when someone allows me to inflict pain upon their body. I feel a sense of artistry in watching welts and bruises form on the previously pale tapestry of your flesh. I’ve heard people use the words “endorphins,” “primal,” and “catharsis” to describe the feelings they get from pain, and those are definitely feelings I get from inflicting it.
I love exploring the mental realm of BDSM and kink, but there is something exhilarating about diving whip first into an overwhelmingly physical experience.
Would you like to be the object of my sadistic desire? Or perhaps you are interested in some coaching to help you safely inflict sensation on your play partners. Let’s make it happen!